It's been quite a while since I updated. There's just been so much to do. The more things pile up on me, the more I turn numb. Feel quite sick of things now.

The 2 new modules are a little difficult to follow. Firstly, the lecturer for Information Technology speaks in a language that sounds like English so half the time in class, I'm playing "Guess the word". The Finance and Banking lecturer is quite good, well, at least I can understand what he's saying. But his lessons go pretty fast, so it can be a little difficult to catch. He's cancelled quite a number of lessons already, I wonder how we're gonna have so many make up lessons before the exams.

Woke up 2 days back with a pain in my foot. Sounds funny huh? Yea. It wasn't so bad then. But now it's getting worse. Damn pain now, it feels like a swell in the heel. Oh, it is a swell in the heel. When I put my body weight down on it, it hurts quite badly. I'm like tip-toeing when I walk on my right.

I got a haircut just yesterday. I'll just say I don't quite like it. When you guys meet me up soon enough to see my hair in this state, you'll know why.

On the whole, things ain't going so well. Business studies, O levels, bit of problems with Eileen, some arrangements to meet up here and there, worries of other people on my shoulders, commitments and worship practice that I haven't really done, ah, I don't know. It just seems like a whole truckload to me.

Right now, I'm starting to think it won't work out.

But whatever.

Looking on the bright side, I just changed my phone recently. Sony Ericsson K618i. Quite contented with it. :)

Looking forward to the end of this week.

I just received my results by email regarding the past 2 modules I took. I failed Statistics. I'll have to retake the whole module again.

I also just got reminded by Mom that O level examinations are just a month away. Suddenly feeling the pressure.

Rehearsals just now didn't go too well, or in my opinion at least. There was no bassist, and it just felt really empty and I don't know if I managed to keep the beat. Plus, what made it more difficult for me was that 3 out of 4 songs had drum solos. I might be going down to church again to practice tomorrow.

I wanted to buy a drumstick bag to put my new Vic Firth Rute in, coz I was afraid the ends would split. So I looked up yahoo auctions and I found one that came with a practice pad plus a pair of drumsticks for only $55. Really really cheap. I already wanted to get it, but Mom came into the room and said that I was spending too much. She told me that I already bought a new pair of drumsticks, and not to waste money on the unnecessary.


That dampened my spirits even more. I must remember that I'm still a student. I forget that sometimes. Sigh. So many negative things n ONE night. Now, I just don't feel like talking. Thank God for blogging. I can now share how I feel without opening my mouth.


Things I SHOULD do now
-Limit my expenditure (I don't budget. Its time I do.)
-Swim more (A form of exercise, and it helps my back problem.)
-Daily QT (Questions that are yet to be answered.)
-Study (O level plus the business modules together is no joke.)

These few things should keep me occupied. Better not be too ambitious. I think these few are already a lot for me to handle.

For now, the thing I should do is have my bath. It's been a whole day out. I probably smell like a dumpster.

I've been practicing the songs for this Sunday. The nervousness is getting to me. It's so different from the internships. I really want the worship to be good so people can have a good time of worship and to be drawn into His presence. But at the same time, I just wanna get this done and over with. How can this 2 feelings be together at the same time?

I bought a new pair of drumsticks today.

Product Snapshot

Product ID: BR006 VIC FIRTH RUTE BRUSHES A bundle of birch dowels, secured in a birch drumstick handle. The handle provides a natural feel and can also be used for back beats, cross rim work and intricate patterns on the cymbal bell. A moveable band adjusts the effect from crisp to splashy.

This is the one! I like. :) I like very very much. :)

I was coming back from work in my Uncle's car one evening. He said that he read this book that has the compilation of all the people more than a hundred years old, in it is their secret(s) to long life. And all of them had ONE thing in common. Happiness.

What is happiness?

I'm feeling really tired now but I have no idea why I'm still in front of my computer. Decided to post an entry instead.

Today in church, we learnt that Worship is a lifestyle. I've listened to sermons on this topic before, but it was refreshing to listen to it again. Sometimes, we just need a little reminder. There were of course some points that I've never heard before.

But Rev Edwin Wong said something today that caught 100% of my attention. He said that God spoke to him while he was spending time talking with God. And God spoke to him in a still small voice. He said you had to be really quiet in order to hear his voice. Did he mean that God's voice was audible? Could I actually hear Him with my ears? What was it exactly? I really really wanna know. I've had this question for quite some while now, and I haven't found my answer to this question yet.

Rev Edwin Wong was praying about Worship. He wasn't so specific in telling us what he prayed for, but this was his reply from God. "Worship is not about me. Worship is about you. Worship is not for my ego. Worship serves to remind you I'm always with you." He's just so amazing isn't He?

Been having mixed feelings about some stuff recently. What makes it worse is I don't know how to share it with others. I don't even think it's possible. Ah, whatever.

Anyway, I'm really excited about the movie "Ratatouille"! I've been wanting to watch it for quite some time. It's out in Cinemas already, but I can't watch it until next Friday! Sad. I've been watching the trailers and all on YouTube. Ah, I can't wait!

Here's a short verse to end off this post.
"Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God--this is your spiritual act of worship." Romans 12:1

Sleep awaits.